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On September 25, 2021 my third grandchild, Donovan Alexander Niman, was silently born. He was announced stillborn. On October 6, 2021 we held his funeral. It's been a devastating and heartbreaking couple of weeks for the family, with quite a bit of beauty and happiness shining through. (More on that next time.) Today, I want… Continue reading Donovan Alexander Niman
I feel like I'm fading away Life cannot make me stay In my final hours I've lost all my power Its ten seconds to midnight Something just doesn't feel right. My hands on an invisible trigger Fear couldn't get any bigger. I sense the end is near for me The fate that awaits, I long… Continue reading Fading Away
It isn't weak to ask for help, It isn't weak to run away. It isn't weak to know you failed, It isn't weak to hate today. It isn't weak to relapse. It isn't weak to give in. It isn't weak to not say no, It isn't weak to sin. It's only weak to give up,… Continue reading Weak
Going through the pictures Of what used to be, I stumbled on the feelings Of what I used to see. I hid what I couldnt say, Afraid of what I'd hear. Now I'm filled with regrets That I could have held you near. I don't think you'd remember We almost had something there, Long forgotten… Continue reading P.S. I Love You – A Poem
Everytime I see you I see so much more. I get these feelings deep inside Urging me to explore. I keep my feelings hidden So no one else will know. I'm not supposed to love you So I can't let it show. Yet Everytime I start to think My thoughts drift to your face. I… Continue reading Untitled Poetry
Something drew me to you, right from the beginning. Everyone around me told me not to fall for you. I wondered why they made me keep my distance from you. When we finally got together, everything was so perfect, but my friends kept telling me to stay away, you're trouble! I just couldn't bare to… Continue reading Confused – A Poem
I'm at the end of my rope and it's about to break. I stand there wondering how much more I can take. The feelings deep within me now, my chest aches as it tightens. My body hurts, my head pounds, The stress within me heightens. All my life has been this way One step ahead… Continue reading Weak – A Poem
As I was going through my writing folders today, I found this poem from 1998, when I was 14 years old. We had days of rain due to an El Nino storm. I'd never heard of such a thing before. Also, I was deep in a Shel Silverstein fueled haze, hence the comical and playful… Continue reading Blame It On El Nino – A Playful Poem
Yesterday you told me Why you were dying. I didn't believe you would But you left me so alone. All the pain built up With no one to talk to. Bottled up inside, you said No one could cure it. The silent disease of solitude. You couldn't break free. Chains held you down. Now I… Continue reading Broken Free – A Poem about Suicide
This is a poem I wrote on January 25, 1999. As I re-read it today, I realized how much it resonates with me today in the world we live in. As I look around me when I go out, I see fear, anger, outrage, and disgust. I want to share this poem with you because I think it will resonate with you as well.
Cathy Marie Bown 