In my life, I have lost many people, but none so close to me as my father. I thought I was prepared to say goodbye. I thought I’d had enough time ahead of the loss to be mentally ready to lose him. I was wrong. So very wrong. When I was a child, I satContinue reading “The Weight of Grief”
Tag Archives: depression
Free- a poem
Hopelessness is consuming me tonight, so I decided to try the crisis line. The woman on the other end told me she understood, but she wasn’t really listening. I feel like I’m screaming at the world, begging it to listen, but nobody can hear me. I have become the invisible woman. Since nothing is working,Continue reading “Free- a poem”
Happy New Year!
I hope everyone had a happy holiday season and a wonderful new year! In my house, we spent the holiday weeks suffering from the flu. It was terrible and made for a super unpleasant holiday. The Christmas holiday was also a very depressing time for me this year, given the broken nature of my homeContinue reading “Happy New Year!”
Changes
PLAY ME This morning was a glorious fall morning, complete with cool enough temperatures to justify a sweatshirt and fog on the windows. I tried to enjoy the crisp air, but I just couldn’t. Spooky season, my favorite time of the year, just doesn’t feel very spooky this year. I want it to, don’t getContinue reading “Changes”
Buried in Stuff
Sometimes it feels like my house will never be clean. I try to keep things put away, but it never lasts. Once upon a time, my house was neat and clean. Of course, I don’t actually remember that day. With a revolving door of children, grandchildren, nieces, nephews, and pets, it’s hard to keep thingsContinue reading “Buried in Stuff”
Happy 40th Birthday To Me!
Yesterday, I celebrated my 40th birthday. It was a great day, filled with family and friends, plenty of time with my children, and a few great presents. My kiddos got me some fantastic Halloween inspired pillows, a Jack the Pumpkin King, and Zero, Jack’s faithful ghost dog. My daughter, Kora, created these amazing runes forContinue reading “Happy 40th Birthday To Me!”
Some Days Are Worth The Trouble
I’m slowly learning to come to terms with my life and all of the chaos in it. My work schedule this week is crazy, and it’s making for a difficult sleep schedule where I have to grab a few hours here and a few hours there. It’s draining, but it’s temporary. Today, I found aContinue reading “Some Days Are Worth The Trouble”
Dark Days
As a writer, my goal is to write daily. I have a personal goal of writing on my blog once a week. If you’ve been following me, you know that I haven’t been doing so well at that. My world is a dark and dreary place to be right now. Several key factors are causingContinue reading “Dark Days”
Playing with Flowers
In my photography course, one of the lessons was how to manipulate photos to create new images and to change the way we see things. For my project, I took some flowers I bought over Easter weekend and played around with arrangements, seperating individual flowers, destroying petals, and flattening the buds to find different viewsContinue reading “Playing with Flowers”
Fading Away
I feel like I’m fading away Life cannot make me stay In my final hours I’ve lost all my power Its ten seconds to midnight Something just doesn’t feel right. My hands on an invisible trigger Fear couldn’t get any bigger. I sense the end is near for me The fate that awaits, I longContinue reading “Fading Away”
Cathy Marie Bown 