I’m at the end of my rope and it’s about to break. I stand there wondering how much more I can take. The feelings deep within me now, my chest aches as it tightens. My body hurts, my head pounds, The stress within me heightens. All my life has been this way One step aheadContinue reading “Weak – A Poem”
Watching the stars fly by through the glass bubble of a window, I couldn’t help but feel nostalgic for what I was leaving behind. Never again would I soar over the azure blue craters near my home while chasing my friends. I would never swim in the caves of Neptune, safely nestled a hundred miles below the surface of our beautiful hostile planet.
As I was going through my writing folders today, I found this poem from 1998, when I was 14 years old. We had days of rain due to an El Nino storm. I’d never heard of such a thing before. Also, I was deep in a Shel Silverstein fueled haze, hence the comical and playfulContinue reading “Blame It On El Nino – A Playful Poem”
Yesterday you told me Why you were dying. I didn’t believe you would But you left me so alone. All the pain built up With no one to talk to. Bottled up inside, you said No one could cure it. The silent disease of solitude. You couldn’t break free. Chains held you down. Now IContinue reading “Broken Free – A Poem about Suicide”
This is a poem I wrote on January 25, 1999. As I re-read it today, I realized how much it resonates with me today in the world we live in. As I look around me when I go out, I see fear, anger, outrage, and disgust. I want to share this poem with you because I think it will resonate with you as well.
You’ve been trying To figure me out Looking so deeply In all the wrong spots The truth is hidden Far from your view I can tell from here You’re just not capable Of looking beyond What you can see I want to trust you But I just don’t feel it Scared to be hurt IContinue reading “Goodbye”
You’re so small and helpless
In a world so big and full.
You look to me for guidance
And protection from all harm.
Oh. My. God. Ashley. Just like that, the beautiful day is gone and the heat is no longer pleasant. Now it feels like I am burning up. My eyes fly open. Am I dead? Am I alive? A million questions fly through my head as I look around, searching for answers.
This poem is from my teenage years. It’s a little rough around the edges but I wanted to share it, unedited, from the raw emotions I struggled with as a teenager.
In the starlight, We see the world. Loud and obnoxious, Quiet and concerned. The people are like Shadows on the wall. Their images change As the day goes by. In each new problem, They change masks, Alter themselves So they belong. They become something They are not. They change so much, They cannot remember WhoContinue reading “Truth Within – A Poem Written When I Was 15”