Some Days Are Worth The Trouble

I’m slowly learning to come to terms with my life and all of the chaos in it. My work schedule this week is crazy, and it’s making for a difficult sleep schedule where I have to grab a few hours here and a few hours there. It’s draining, but it’s temporary.

Today, I found a few minutes to write and was pleased with my progress. I can see mistakes on the page, but the important step was getting the words out. Life’s chaos seems to form the biggest writer’s block for me. I want to write, my characters want me to write, but I can’t seem to put my hands on the keyboard. I’ve even tried writing in notebooks. I find myself staring at the page for long periods of time with nothing to show for it.

As a child, I thought by the time I was 40 I would have life figured out. I would be where I was going to be until I died at that point.

Boy, was I wrong.

My future is so undecided at this point, I don’t know which way it’s going to go.

What I really want, I’m afraid to reach for because I’m afraid of failure.

What is familiar is the easy way out but it’s less painful.

One thing is for sure. I won’t be resting on my laurels, waiting to die any time soon. I figure my life is probably half way over. Since the first half was so exciting, I can’t wait to see what the second half will bring!

And, for good measure, here’s a picture of my autistic granddaughter, having a fantastic time playing with bubbles.

Taken By James Bown

Run you beautiful girl and don’t let anyone ever stop you!

Published by cathymariebown

I am a writer and student looking for my place in the digital world.

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